Is it time?

For the longest time now, I have been getting the same answer

YES

YES

YES!!

I know I should follow my heart and the spirit,

truly i am scared.

Will it change who I am?

Will it hurt my marriage?

Will I regret it?

If I have doubt, maybe it isn't my time!!

Kev and I are not married in the temple and right now in our lives Kevin doesn't attend church with Mattie, Brohlen and I.

We used to go and then he got mad because Naomi (xwife) would tell the kids all sorts of bad stuff about our church. She and the kids attend the Community of Christ, and woman get to hold the priesthood too.

Anyway, Kev stopped going, he still beleives and he loves that Mattie and Brohlen have good values, and he supports me with my choices too.

So, lately I have had the WHISPER!!

GO TO THE TEMPLE!!

I feel that is where I need to direct my life and set that example for the kids

so WHY am I so scared??

Mattie talks about going on a mission, Brohlen has to say his prayers and he thanks GOD everyday for the church (he came up with by himself).

So, I am in hope that maybe my friends can help me see!!

Kev supports me and says I should, but he is not ready, so maybe that is why I should wait?